I'm just going to be as straight as possible. I've stopped reading my bible every single night.Wanna know whyyyyy?
I'd find myself saying, "Seriously, Hanna. What is the block here? Why aren't you like this, this, and this person? It is the rules that I must read my bible every day.What is my issue? In all reality, I was completely missing the point.
Now, I'm sure I shocked many of you with my news of not reading my bible as often. But, my reasoning is way deeper than just defining my personal relationship. Ever since I was 11, I have read my bible out of pure fear.
I used to lay in bed at night hoping and praying that I could fall asleep that night without having any fear. Sequentially, I decided to pick up my bible and read it when I was scared, which was every single night. Over the years that solution to my fear became an addiction. If I didn't read my bible that night, I could feel that fear and also guilt from simply not reading sink back in.
After going to a different youth group one day and hearing a sermon on religiousness. I found that my habit of reading the bible everyday was not something to be proud of.
What I'm trying to say here is that we should WANT to know more about God and hear His words, right? Right! That's why I am taking time off of reading my bible "religiously" so that when I do get into the habit once again, I know for sure that I'm doing it out of relationship. Not out of fear, not out of religious satisfaction, but out of true and humble desire.
In basis, I believe that everyone's relationship with the Lord is everyone's relationship with the Lord. I am not one to judge others, and it is not their place to judge mine.
I love Jesus with all my heart. Sometimes that means extreme reevaluation of ourselves in order to love with our whole hearts and not be robotic which is exceptionally easy to do!
(I'm watching "Star Wars" hence this picture as my example of being "robotic" . I couldn't resist :) )
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